Update

I haven't posted in a while so I'll try to catch everyone up...

Recently the Marketing department I work in went through some cut backs. We lost 20% of our staff. To be honest we only had five people to start with so you math wizards out there have figured out only one person got laid off. But the issue is that he was the senior graphic designer and now that leaves me holding the bag with all the design duties of a $300 million dollar a year company. So needless to say I have been scrambling trying to pick up the slack and figure everything out.

The other scary part was that I found out it was either him or me. I do not enjoy other's misfortune, but thank God I still have a job. I am very fortunate to have a job in these tough economic times. I have been dealing with the stress of it all in the usual way I do, bury it down deep and don't talk about it. Not a good idea.

However, after reading a recent blog by my good friend Dusty Beach, I have come to terms with some things. I really related to what he was saying about his insecurities as our Executive Pastor. I don't have any formal design schooling or any formal A/V training, and both are critical parts of my job. Sometimes I wonder how I even got here and why no one has realized that I usually have no idea what I'm doing. What I realized is that God has me here for a reason, and I am in control of my own insecurities and fears and they are not from God at all.

About a year ago I really thought that I was going to be able to go into full time ministry at Avalon and all my wildest dreams would come true. Now that I look back I realize how much God know and how much I don't know. I learn so much everyday about how a professional design/creative team should function, and I learn new tips and tricks everyday too. One day I will be in full time ministry at Avalon and I will be so much more prepared than I was a year ago.

So, I know I've rambled a little and if you've read this far then here is the take away. God is really smart and we are really dumb. He knows it all already, and we have to remind ourselves of that.

"Nothing surprises God"

peace